{"id":475,"date":"2012-07-15T11:10:09","date_gmt":"2012-07-15T11:10:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.innerquests.netstorms.org\/?p=475"},"modified":"2012-07-15T11:10:09","modified_gmt":"2012-07-15T11:10:09","slug":"i-had-hair","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/innerquests.chidakasha.co.uk\/index.php\/2012\/07\/15\/i-had-hair\/","title":{"rendered":"I Had Hair Then"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.innerquests.netstorms.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/07\/sixthform.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/www.innerquests.netstorms.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/07\/sixthform1.jpg\" alt=\"\" title=\"sixthform1\" width=\"600\" height=\"381\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-479\" srcset=\"https:\/\/innerquests.chidakasha.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/07\/sixthform1.jpg 600w, https:\/\/innerquests.chidakasha.co.uk\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/07\/sixthform1-300x191.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 600px) 100vw, 600px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.innerquests.netstorms.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/07\/dg1.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-medium wp-image-478 alignleft\" title=\"dg1\" src=\"http:\/\/www.innerquests.netstorms.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/07\/dg1-197x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"197\" height=\"300\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>The first picture shows me at the right end of the middle row. It is maybe 1970 or 1971. I am in the Sixth Form at Ernest Bevin Comprehensive School in Tooting.<\/p>\n<p>The second picture shows me in late 1988 or 1989 since I&#8217;m with Daniel and he looks about a year old.<\/p>\n<p>On Saturday I was looking through my papers and some old photos. Trying to file stuff but constantly being distracted, drawn into memories.<\/p>\n<p>Some people say, very kindly I think, that I still look like I&#8217;m in my 30s but I don&#8217;t think so. The picture shows that I was much better looking in my 30s and had hair. Things started to go to pot-belly when I hit 40. Now I&#8217;m 59 and thinking back, I have not achieved what I wanted to achieve by this age. I did not want specific things; I wanted to be a better and more accomplished person. That sounds like regret but it is not, or if it is then it is very slight. <\/p>\n<p>Last Friday I attended the funeral of a very accomplished Guyanese man, <a href=\"http:\/\/www.kaieteurnewsonline.com\/2012\/07\/12\/pathologist-dr-edward-simon-dies-in-england\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Dr Edward Simon<\/a>, who seemed to have lived a long and exemplary life with great determination, dedication and discipline. These are qualities that I have lacked. However I am increasingly accepting where I am and I increasingly know who I am. I recognise the futility and fallacy of regret in a deep way.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>The first picture shows me at the right end of the middle row. It is maybe 1970 or 1971. I am in the Sixth Form at Ernest Bevin Comprehensive School in Tooting. The second picture shows me in late 1988 or 1989 since I&#8217;m with Daniel and he looks about a year old. On&#8230;<\/p>\n<p class=\"read-more\"><a class=\"btn btn-default\" href=\"https:\/\/innerquests.chidakasha.co.uk\/index.php\/2012\/07\/15\/i-had-hair\/\"> Read More<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">  Read More<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[36],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/innerquests.chidakasha.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/475"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/innerquests.chidakasha.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/innerquests.chidakasha.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/innerquests.chidakasha.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/innerquests.chidakasha.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=475"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/innerquests.chidakasha.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/475\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/innerquests.chidakasha.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=475"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/innerquests.chidakasha.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=475"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/innerquests.chidakasha.co.uk\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=475"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}